It is Well with my Soul

As I mentioned in the last blog, I don’t always understand the path God has my family on. I mean come on, there have to be many of you who feel the same way I do! I feel like Cody and I have spent our years together living by faith. I never understand why we do the things we do, but I always know at every turn, that we are doing what we are supposed to. Now, that being said, I didn’t say that it comes easy or that I even handle it with grace. Most of the times I am a ball of stress and worry. I do it kicking and screaming on the inside. As those close to me know, I am a worry wort. I over think things and make things more complicated than they should be. I very seldom see the world as black and white. I feel like its always gray or is it grey?!

Just this morning I found myself talking out loud to God in the car like a crazy lady. I will admit that I finally told him that I wasn’t really liking his plans for us right now. WHAT?!?! Yep, you heard me! I told him I was angry with him. I followed it with, “I know that YOUR plans are ALWAYS better than MY plans, but seriously, how much more of this unknown do you think I can take??!” That’s the honest truth. I do trust his plans for us. I REALLY REALLY do, but how often do we hit that, “I just can’t take it anymore” point? I then turned my phone on airplane mode, turned on a worship playlist I made a few months back, and hit shuffle. The first song that came on was “Good Good Father” by Chris Tomlin, the second was “Word of God Speak” MercyMe, third “Even If” MercyMe, and lastly, “I Can Only Imagine” MercyMe. I have 19 very different songs in that playlist. I know with out a doubt that there was no coincidence in those songs. (If you don’t know the lyrics to these songs by heart, go listen to them NOW)

We do serve a GOOD GOOD Father! It was pouring this morning on the drive home from San Angelo and when song number two came on so were the tears “Word of God speak, would you pour down like rain…to be still and know that you’re in this place…” Song 3 “They say it only takes a little faith to move a mountain, well good thing, a little faith is all I have, right now. But God, when You choose to leave mountains unmovable, Give me the strength to be able to sing IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL”!

Sometimes we all just need to be reminded that God does have a plan. We don’t know what it is and it is hard to trust Him at times, but he IS a good good father who loves us. I know I have quoted this verse before, but it seems to be on my mind a lot these days!

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11